April, 30th 2015, remarkable date when all my soul scars were widely open and have been taking long to heal. Day I received the biggest challenge to overcome, and I confess after almost 5 years I am still trying. Day when all my expectations about my life, living, plans, etc came down like a meteor on Earth.
The memories are fresh and clear as water when I noticed there was something strange with my body. I was not able to run 12/14km ~ 7.4/8.6 miles a day as I used to. I was feeling tired, sleepy and felt lot of pain on my legs. Day by day things were getting worse and worse at a point that I had difficulties to walk, keep myself standing. At this point, I spoke to my wife that my case was probably serious and needed to see a doctor urgently. So, on April 30th 2015 the doctor told me I got leukemia. At first, He suspected it was an acute myeloid leukemia and he was right. My first questions were – When would I be able to get a medical release to come back to work? What was the probability to get cured?. It may sound foolish questions, or both of them can show how lost I was and how much I knew about what was happening to me. I did not know how much I was to face, overcome, how much pain I would feel, how much expectation would be every morning when my blood test results were released, and I how much I would pray for the opportunity to see my daughter to be born. By the way, at that time my wife was in her 7 month pregnancy of our first child. My wife always tells me how strong she had to be to keep herself calm to not affect our baby. Definitely, it was not a hard time only for me but for her and the rest of our family.
After a lot of fight against many problems which brought up along the way such as appendicitis, respiratory acute syndrome, and an infection on my spine caused by the RAS, I finally got a marrow remission, and that is the way I am nowadays. All scars, all fears were not gone yet, but I do struggle to put myself together every day. Sometimes a part of me falls apart but I try to keep myself together. I do not hide from myself that things really have changed deeply, what I try to do is to adapt what I can do right now at this very moment, because the future is uncertain for everyone, either for those who are in good shape, good health or those who do not. The sun lights up every morning giving new opportunities to everyone, every single day is an opportunity for me to change, to think, rethink, evaluate my attitudes and try to be better, to do the best, to improve. Every day is an opportunity.