I am a cancer patient, I have colorectal cancer which was diganosed in Apr-2016. My cancer has metastasized to the liver. Since the diagnosis, I have had many surgeries and treatments, each with more promising results. Currently, I am on no medication, regular scans for "wait and watch".
I have been through chemotherapy and many many surgeries. But the fear of cancer is coming back, it never goes away. I wonder if it ever will, I doubt. I have scary memories of times when chemo and surgeries were going on, especially chemo. It changes a person in many ways, not just cancer cells.
I am also aware that the state that I am in, I am very lucky, there are few who lose this battle early. It is a battle between me and my mind. My friends, family and spouse help me get to winning the battle. But it's me alone who loses it sometimes.
I only wish that everyone gets that strength to fight the battle and come out victorious. Please stay and fight, do not lose heart. It is easier to say than do and. It is impossible to be in that optimistic state forever, and when you are down, then take help from friends and family. Talk to other folks, it helps relieve some pain.
I can only say - All the best, stay engaged and stay positive, there is no other way!