In 2015 my mother was diagnosed ”by accident” with pancreatic cancer. I am a registered nurse and one evening I came from work and there she was in pain laying and just thinking it was a regular stomach pain and waiting for it to go away. I gave her some pain medication, and tried to take her to the hospital but she didn't want to.
I couldn't sleep all night because I had this feeling everything wasn't right. The next day I booked her a doctor's apointment and that was where it all begun. The same day we went for her to have an ultrasound. I asked the doctor making the ultrasound to tell me what he saw but he told me to wait for the doctor who ordered it to call you. Next day the doctor called. Because my mother didnt speak good Finnish they called me. There I was a 20 year old girl listening to the doctor that my mother had cancer. My whole world collapsed, I didnt know what to do, how to tell her. I went to her, tears in my eyes and I didn't have to say anyting she knew..
After 3 and half years 29.12.2018 we lost the battle and I lost my mother and with her a piece of my hart. Last year I was pregnant with my first child, my due date was 30.12.2020, one day after my mothers day of death. 17.12.2020 I gave birth to an amazing little girl, an angel who is carrying the name of my mother Drita.